I remember everything about this journey.
I remember picking out my first “nice camera”. I remember the pull to learn more and more about how to make images like I saw in my mind.
I remember the years of trying to make images that I thought others would like, and years of feeling like it just didn’t feel right.
I remember the moment I took photos similar to my style now and how it lit me from the inside out. I remember staying up all night thinking – and imagining all that I could capture with this device in my hands.
I wanted my images to be felt, not seen. I wanted my style to speak for itself. I wanted to look at my images that I made and get that same overwhelming-lit-from-the-inside feeling like I did when I took that first photo.
I remember attending my first workshop, and my first critique. I remember the sting of the constructive criticism, and how it didn’t feel very constructive at the time.
I remember my year long mentorship with Kirsten Lewis, and crying after almost every single meeting. Growth is hard. You need to take a hard look at your weakness’ – it’s the only way to be better. To be stronger.
I remember every single session, and every single family that has invited me into their lives and homes, trusting me with their most vulnerable space and relationships. Trusting that I will capture moments that they didn’t even realize were there. I am forever grateful for every one of them.
I remember wanting to give up, and I almost did. My own expectations weighing on me, wanting me to drowned in failure. But I just couldn’t. I refused to quit. Photography is part of who I am now. I am changed because of it.
And now, five years later, I remember how far I have come – and how wonderful it is that I am here, stronger and better than I’ve ever been. Focused on my mission. To use my camera as a means of documenting the small, invisible moments in everyday life. To document the looks, the touch, the feel of loving your children. To take the ordinary, and make it feel extraordinary. To show a client their gallery and hear them say “How did you do that?”.
Five years. Tears. Late Nights. Try. Fail. Try. Fail. Try. Succeed. Repeat. Cry. Celebrate. Feel like I want to quit, but keep going.
Photography has taught me many things. It has taught me who I am. How I relate to others. Photography has helped me process and get through some of my darkest days.
It has taught me patience and perseverance. It has taught me that my vision matters.
But most of all, photography has taught me to be present, be mindful of the little things happening around me. To find the light in any situation and above all else…it has taught me to look for love, something my heart desperately needed.
This is what I am meant to do. This is what I will continue to do. If I’ve come this far in five years, what can I do in the next five?
Cheers to five years….and many more.
To Celebrate my 5 years, I will be offering the following for the next FIVE BOOKINGS ONLY:
One hour in home documentary session in Nov or Dec 2017 + All final images via download for $375 and receive 50% OFF A SESSION IN JANUARY – APRIL 2018
To book your session with me, click here